I don’t know of too many things that piss me off more than someone telling me to cheer up. Josh apparently thinks I’m in a bad mood this morning so he told me to cheer up. Guess what asshole, I’ll cheer up when I’m goddamn good and ready to.
I just don’t have any patience for him today and I’m not sure what to do about it. We didn’t end up fighting yesterday but only because I really just didn’t have the energy for it. He apologized for not calling, I apologized for ignoring him, and we just went about the rest of our evening as if nothing had happened.
I did tell him that I don’t think he should call on his first break because I’m almost never in a mood to really want to talk that early. We’ll see if he remembers today. My money is on not.
I’m pretty seriously doubting that he’ll do anything for Valentine’s Day. We don’t really have money to do anything, so I kind of hope he just doesn’t try. To me it’s just another day, hyped beyond belief by the greeting card and floral industries. If you love someone you should show them every day, not just one day of the year.
I wish I knew why I’m so fucking crabby all the time. It really is getting old. What’s funny is that I can keep my shit together when I’m interacting with my co-workers, but when I have to deal with Josh it’s like the gloves come off and I don’t pull any punches. Maybe it’s because he really doesn’t make me happy most days and I’m getting tired of it. Who knows.
I’ve been taking my pills like I’m supposed to, I’m trying to get enough sleep, I haven’t had a drink in more than a month now… What gives?