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Yes kids, today is the day.  I’m old.  Well, older anyway.  I won’t be well and truly old for a few more years.  Today I guess I just feel old.

Josh did remember this morning, so that was nice.  And my grandma called and sang to me like always.  The only thing missing is a birthday greeting from my dad.  I’m really going to miss that this year.

Not much in the way of excitement going on today so far.  I’m at work as per usual, just kind of waiting for my co-workers to show up and see if any of them remembered.  I had dropped a hint to one of them that I didn’t really want a big fuss made this year.  I’m just hoping they do a little something.

Mom is supposed to be taking me out for lunch on Friday.  She gave me a gift certificate to the nail salon for pedicures.  Josh ended up buying me a new dress for work, a pair of pale green pajamas, and a new silver rose bead for my charm bracelet.  Not a bad birthday so far.

I’m 36 years old, I lost my father a month ago, I’ve been married 3 times, and I’ve got a dual mental health diagnosis.  My life has the potential to suck ass hardcore.  But I don’t think it does, at least not most days.  Sure, there’s a lot of crummy shit going on, but there’s a lot of good as well.  I think too many of us take the good things for granted too often.  I would challenge all of you today to stop for a moment and reflect on the good in your life.  We all have at least one thing to be thankful or grateful for.  I’ll share mine later.

What’s yours?