Ah yes, nothing…
I went home with my little plan in my head and once I got there it vanished. As per usual. I told him that I realize I can’t change him, he’s got to do that. I told him that I really want to trust him, but I don’t feel like I can right now. And I told him that I love him more than I’ve ever loved anyone. Ever.
We didn’t fight. We had a very quiet and rational discussion and I think things are alright now. We’ll see how today goes.
I got virtually nothing done last night. I was exhausted. I sat on the couch for a few minutes watching tv but that was about it. I’m pretty sure I was asleep before 9. I woke up at 4 this morning to go to the bathroom and then promptly fell back asleep. I made it to work on time and I seem to be functioning alright so far.
Where, oh where, did all of my beautiful energy go?
The weather here has been rather rainy and odd the last few days. Not odd for spring in Nebraska, but odd. Not quite sure how to explain it. I guess you’d have to have lived here to really understand. Anyway, it’s supposed to be sunny and warmer today. I’m hoping so. Maybe more sun would cheer me up.
I know for sure that some productivity would cheer me up. Just trying to figure out how to get that accomplished. I’ve done a few things here already but I’ve got a butt load more that I need to do. I’m just hoping today doesn’t end up being another day aimlessly surfing the web and wasting time.
I brought the current shawl with me today and hopefully I’ll make a little progress at lunch. I didn’t get much done yesterday because I was already irritated with Josh and if there’s one thing I know it’s that I have no business playing with yarn while I’m irritated. Hopefully today is smooth and I get another couple rows done.
Josh wants me to teach him how to use Photoshop this weekend. In a way I’m kind of looking forward to it. I like teaching people new things. I just hope I have enough of the skills he’s interested in and that he’s patient. Patience is not known for being one of his better qualities. He mentioned trying to redo the rose picture this week so that we could try coloring it in PS this weekend. Maybe tonight I can get him to do the line drawing.
I really need to revisit my to do list at home, like maybe tonight. I know there’s a ton of stuff I need to get done over the next several days, I just need to form some kind of plan of attack. Maybe if I have a good day today I’ll go home with a little energy and I can start getting things done tonight. I can always hope.
The mood has finally settled back down I think. I woke up a little grumpy but I’d been having weird dreams, so that’s not unusual. I feel pretty decent right now and I’m hoping to stay that way today. Just waiting for Josh’s first break right now to see how that goes.