Apparently not me.
I laid down last night around 9. Josh was already good and drunk by then and totally fighting going to bed. So I left him playing with the computer. Around 10:30 I woke up alone. He had gone upstairs for the bathroom. I took a quick trip to the other one and then came back down to sleep again. He was all over me, elbows in my back, trying to talk to me… I ignored him and tried to go back to sleep. I woke up again at 4 because I had to pee again. And then of course I couldn’t fall back asleep. So here it is, not even 5:15 on a Saturday morning, and I am WIDE AWAKE.
I guess this shouldn’t surprise me too much. I almost never manage to sleep in on the weekends. My body seems to prefer to sleep late on week days when I’m really supposed to be getting up and going to work. On the weekends when I have all kinds of extra time, my body wants to be up and moving as early as possible. It’s entirely fucked up, but it is what it is.
I plan to make the most of my time, as usual. I’ve got the scale with me and I’m going to start splitting my uncle’s yarn in a minute. Yesterday I got damn near all of the chores done – all that’s left is dusting and Josh kind of started that for me. The remainder of the to do list looks like this:
- finish untangling a ball of yarn
- start my uncle’s sock
- get Josh to apply for financial aid for school
- and run to the grocery store
Very manageable I think. About the only thing I can really do right now is the sock, given that everyone else is asleep. I suppose I could run to the store, but I’m not exactly in the mood to get dressed yet.
I just keep thinking that if I could find a way to really physically exhaust myself I’d sleep and sleep good. I might actually try getting on the treadmill today and see if a nice 30 minute walk helps. I’m just starting to run out of non-drug related options. I know there’s plenty of wiggle room yet with the Geodon, I just really would like to figure out how to find a way to combat this without a lot of extra meds.