The speeding up/slowing down thing pretty well came to a halt after dinner. At that point I slowed down to where I pretty well just stopped. Thankfully I was able to get the requisite evening chores accomplished and my shelf hung up. But I didn’t knit at all and that kind of bummed me out.
I decided to go ahead and take only 100mg of Geodon and I’m glad I did. I slept well last night and I woke up feeling better. I was a little slow getting started, but I also started about 30 minutes earlier since I needed to make sure Josh was out the door in time. But I got all of my regular morning stuff done plus a few extra bits. I feel like my energy is slowly picking up and I’m feeling fairly certain that I’ll top out where I should.
In many ways yesterday was perfect. Josh and I got along all day, I had enough energy to get the things I needed to done, and I slept quite well. If I could figure out how to clone that day and make it happen every day, I’d be a very happy Mama indeed. But, as Josh pointed out last night, no one can safely stay hypomanic forever. I am disturbingly aware of the fact that this episode will come to an end, and probably soon. I just want to do everything I can to minimize a crash at the end of it. And I’m trying to make the most of the energy I have now because I know that this will be the first thing to go.
I’m really hoping this lasts through the weekend. I’ve got just a few more big things I’d like to get accomplished before I turn into a slug again. My closet is getting kind of messy again and I’d really like to get it cleaned out and organized. That’s where I keep all of the craft supplies and lately we haven’t been doing such a good job of putting things back when we’re done. Plus I’d like to label stuff so I don’t have to rifle through boxes to find what I’m looking for. Mom has said she’ll help me with this. I think if I can get that done this weekend I’ll feel pretty good.