03 Friday Aug 2012
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John’s sock
I didn’t actually work on it at lunch, but I thought maybe it was time to share a progress shot. I should be able to finish this at Gemma’s tomorrow and hopefully start the second one. The colors are really nice, I just can’t stand this yarn.
03 Friday Aug 2012
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bipolar disorder, friends, hormones, knitting, life, love, meds, mental illness, sleep
Yesterday was pretty well a bust. We fought off and on all damn day. By the time I got home I was completely wiped. And of course since it was Thursday, my mom brought my niece over. That was also a disaster. I really wish someone would just fucking shoot me now.
I told Josh yesterday that I really need some time to relax. He suggested asking my boss for a day off, promising that he’d stay at work. I told him that’s just not possible right now with as busy as we are. I told him I’d find some other way to relax this weekend and he agreed that this would be ok. So now he has totally set himself up for this. I just haven’t decided if I’m telling him about my plans tonight or tomorrow morning.
Still no real progress on the sock. I managed to work on it for a little bit during lunch yesterday but not at all last night. We’re supposed to be moving some furniture around here at work this morning so I’m not sure when I’ll be taking my lunch break. I know I’ll be able to get some good progress made at Gemma’s tomorrow, so I’m just kind of holding out for that.
I told him yesterday that I wasn’t going to talk to him between breaks at all anymore, so this morning I didn’t send him a text telling him I’d gotten here. About 7:05 he sent me one saying that he hoped I’d made it and that he’ll talk to me at break. So I’m guessing he doesn’t really care. And so I don’t care.
The mood is still pretty bad. I’m thinking I’m coming into the hormone dump again. Last night I couldn’t get comfortable in bed and I felt really hot even though the basement is the coolest part of the house and I had two fans going. I’ve also been craving sweets again. Gotta be hormones.
I’m really starting to wonder if the Clonidine is a good idea. I had weird dreams again last night and when I woke up to go to the bathroom it tasted like I had thrown up. I had a terrible itch in the back of my throat and I just couldn’t get the taste out of my mouth. I have no idea what the deal was, but it was really unpleasant. I think maybe tonight I’ll try not taking it and see if things are any better.
