Hi kids! Mama’s been awake since 2:30 again. Laundry is done, mocha has been drank, kitchen completely cleaned up, and the sock has been worked on a little. I’ve got to vacuum and clean the bathroom yet and then I am done.
I finally told Josh yesterday afternoon about going to Gemma’s. He actually asked me what was going on. I kept talking to him about his plans with the brat and not including myself and he finally called me on it. I told him about wanting the time to relax and amazingly he wasn’t upset. He said we should probably do this kind of thing more often and I agreed. If his friends weren’t such flakes I’d be happy to let him go hang out with them, but they don’t ever make plans ahead of time. Josh’s only concern was that I hadn’t told him earlier. I explained that I didn’t want either of us to try to talk me out of going.
He got drunk again last night, big surprise. I had to keep a real close eye on him because my mom is having all of the banisters for the stair ways redone and there’s no rails for the steps that lead up to the main floor right now. I had terrible visions of him trying to go out for a smoke and falling head first down the stairs. Fortunately he stayed down here with me and everything was alright. Well, as alright as it can be when he rolls himself out of bed and completely knocks over everything on his night stand. I’m making him clean it up when he wakes up. I didn’t do it, I’m not cleaning it up.
I’m having a bit of a dilemma right now and I’d like to ask for your help. I found out yesterday afternoon that Josh has been looking at porn and masturbating at night. I’m kind of crushed. I had thought that having sex damn near every day would be enough for him. He claims that it just helps him get to sleep. I don’t know, it just fucking kills me. I guess at least he’s not going out looking for other women to actually have sex with, but for some reason this just really hurts my feelings. He says all guys do it no matter how good their sex lives are. Is this true?