halfway done

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knitting

Since I’ve been resting I’ve been knitting.  Yesterday it was washcloths for Christmas gifts.  Today I decided I really needed to spend a little time with the evil sock.  I present you Evil Sock, The First…

Evil Sock

ugh

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bipolar disorder, life, love, mental illness, motivation, sleep, stress

I’m back at work this morning, but just to teach.  I still feel utterly miserable.  I slept quite a bit yesterday and then slept again last night and I still don’t really feel like I have any energy.  And I’m really afraid today that I won’t be able to control my bowels and will have an accident.  Not cool.

Josh and I managed to get along pretty well all day yesterday, which was really nice.  He stayed at work and let me rest, which is what I needed.  Today he’s being very sweet to me which always helps.

The mood is very unpleasant.  I hate being sick and I know I’ve been a little crabby because of it.  Not feeling well will do that to you.  I just don’t feel like I have any energy or motivation to do anything and that frustrates the hell out of me.  So does the feeling that I have an alien baby inside me just waiting to rip through my guts.

Right now I’m just waiting for my boss to come in so I can let her know what’s going on.  She’s been out the last two days and doesn’t have the story yet.  My co-worker told me that if she’s not here before I leave to teach she’ll let our boss know what’s going on.  I’d just really rather talk to her myself.

I feel terrible about being sick while we’re so busy, but there really isn’t much I can do about it.  With a virus you pretty well have to just rest and let the damn thing run its course.  And we all know how hard it is for me to just rest.