I did end up leaving half way through the day yesterday. After I had lunch I was just way too tired to go on. I went home and took a nap and felt quite a bit better.
Things with Josh are still not great. He’s convinced I don’t like him anymore. He doesn’t seem to understand that if he’d just do a few things around the house and pretend that he cares about me it would be a whole lot easier for me to treat him like I used to. He really is pretty stupid most of the time. So we had a fight and then things seemed to settle down. We spent more time on his homework last night and tried to make a plan for how to keep him on track with everything. I told him point blank that in order to get through all of the work he has right now he’ll need to do some of it while the brat is over this weekend. He didn’t seem too excited about that.
Today is the start of the big workshop. I just want to get it done and over. I realize that what we’re doing is important, I’m just not that excited about it. It seems like not everyone on the team is doing the same amount of work and that’s just not right. Oh well, I guess if my boss doesn’t care then I shouldn’t either.
I am starting to feel a little better. I’m hoping by next week to be back to my old self. I really need to get back to knitting if I’m going to get all of the presents made in time. And that house has got to get cleaned up this weekend. It’s a huge fucking mess and it’s driving me crazy.
The mood is alright I guess. I haven’t felt like I’m having too much trouble with the mental stuff lately, I just haven’t been happy with Josh. That seems to be almost a cyclical thing anymore. We’re really good to each other and things go great for a few weeks and then the bottom falls out and all we do is fight for a few weeks. It’s kind of predictable.
I know school is stressing him out, I just don’t really know what to do to help that.
Sorry kids, life got in the way.
The workshop went alright. My boss took us all out to lunch afterwards which was really nice. I’m just waiting now to get to go home. Things with Josh have been going alright so far today. I’m just not really excited to see what the beer drinking brings tonight.