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I’m apparently not allowed to have a quiet week.

Yesterday ended up being a pretty decent day.  I was fairly busy for most of it so it seemed to go pretty quick.  There were a few tense moments here at work, but things with Josh were very smooth and the day as a whole would have to be considered a win.  I got home and got to knit for a little while before dinner and then again after dinner.  That was awesome.  Josh and I mutually decided that we’d rather just hang out than have sex again so that’s what we did.  It was kind of nice to just relax together.  I got a respectable amount of progress made on my sweater.  Then we tried to go to bed.

I’m not sure what the deal was last night but I had a hell of a time getting to sleep.  Josh was out before 9, I was still looking at the clock well after midnight.  And I have no idea what would have happened.  I was in a pleasant mood when I laid down, I took my pills like I was supposed to, I turned the tv off as soon as Josh fell asleep…  Who knows.  Anyway, I got spotty sleep and I’m just hoping it doesn’t fuck me up today.

So I got up when Josh was leaving this morning.  I was a little mumbly, but I told him everything was ok and that I loved him.  He headed out to the car and I went back downstairs to start taking care of things.  A few minutes later he comes back in and tells me that someone tried breaking into the car.  I went out and there is a HUGE dent in the driver side fender by the back edge of the door.  He said they probably tried to pop the door open from the back when they found out it was locked.  You can kind of still get the door open, but not very well.

I sent him to work in my Jeep and I started making phone calls.  I’m waiting for a return call from the claims adjuster at the insurance company and a call from the police department about the report I’m filing.  This is just such a mess.  And now I’ll have to figure out how to come up with the $250 deductible on the insurance.  Just what I didn’t need this month.

Here’s the terrible part – when Josh was showing me the damage to the car he said something about how he could try to drive it anyway, I could take him to work, or he could just call in.  When I told him he could take my Jeep he seemed almost pissed off – like the whole point was to not go to work.  So now I have to wonder if he didn’t do this himself in some sort of misguided attempt at getting out of work for the day.  I don’t think he’d be that dirty and underhanded, but you never know.  I guess I’ll get a better idea when I talk to him later.

It’s finally getting cold around here.  Cold means I’m wearing socks with my sandals – my hand knit purple socks of course – and Josh finally wore his new hat this morning.  I took that as a good sign.  I’m just hoping he likes it well enough to continue to wear it this winter.  He’s incredibly picky about hats for some reason.  Of course, so am I – I almost never wear hats because I don’t like what they do to my hair.  I have a beautiful black hat that I knit for myself many years ago.  It’s kind of a bucket style but the front is covered in pink and purple roses.  It’s very feminine.  Maybe this winter I’ll get it out again and get Josh to take a picture of me wearing it.

The sweater is progressing nicely.  I’m onto the second ball of yarn and it’s looking nice.  Because of the construction it’s still not much to look at yet – just a big striped piece of fabric.  I am really liking how this yarn is striping.  It’s got greens and pinks and purples in it and it’s just gorgeous.  I’ve decided this is my reward for quitting smoking.  I’m hoping to have it done soon.  I know I need to get back to the gift knitting and this is getting to the point where it takes so long to do a row that it’s not really great for lunch time knitting.  It’s great tv knitting though.  The pattern is just a 2 row repeat, super easy.  I’ve got 5 balls of this yarn; I’m planning to use 4 for the body and then I’ll split the 5th for the sleeves.

The mood is not too bad, all things considered.  I’m a little worried about the money for the car, but I know I’ll figure something out.  I’m really hoping that Josh and I are able to have a good weekend.  I think I’ve pretty well decided that if we don’t, we won’t have another.  Terrible to say probably, but I just can’t keep dealing with the staggering amounts of stress.