We talked last night, really talked. It was the first time in ages and it felt really good. I honestly feel like maybe we can move forward now.
He has agreed to stop drinking. I’m still not sure if he understands really why this is such a hot button issue for me, but he’s agreed. He did say that since I’m taking this away from him that he’ll have to be allowed to find some other way to fill that time. I agree, 100%. I suggested several things. He can hang out with the computer, find a video game to play (either for the computer or for the Wii), we can start reading a book together again, he can read his own book, we can start watching more movies together on Netflix, he can do art projects… There are plenty of things he/we can do to fill that time.
I also asked him if it’s hard for him to go to a restaurant that he knows serves drinks and not have one – he said yes. So now we’re going to try doing date night at home. We’ll go to the store and get ingredients for a nicer than normal meal and then prepare it together. We’ve both said before how much we enjoy cooking meals together, so that would be a good thing anyway. This Friday night we’re going to grill steaks and make baked potatoes and our special corn (it has sauteed onions and red bell peppers in it). For dessert I’m going to make a chocolate pie. I’m really hoping this helps satisfy the need for something different to do.
I kind of feel like my life has been in a holding pattern lately. All I’ve had time or energy for is the fighting with Josh. Spending the day with Gemma yesterday just proved to me that I NEED to have something else going on. I actually turned off my cell phone while I was there so that I could feel like I was actively participating in the moment. And I did knit some. I feel like it’s beyond time to get back to playing with fiber again.
That’s the sock I’ve been working on for myself. I still haven’t started the other mitten, but I think I need to. I also need to get the butterflies finished this week. The girls’ birthday party is fast approaching. The butterflies don’t take very long to make but I’m making a shit ton of them. And then they’ll need to be assembled. So yeah, I really need to get on that this week. I’m not sure how much longer the sock will take – I’m working it on smaller needles that are only marginally bigger than toothpicks. But damn is that yarn pretty and damn is it soft.
I realize this is only day 2 of my official vacation, but I have to say that I’m quite enjoying it so far. Today I’m going to cook dinner, work on the butterflies, help Mom get out some Christmas decorations, and perhaps go shopping with her for more. She has quite the collection of nutcrackers and she’s looking to add another this year. We still haven’t decided if we’ll put up the big Christmas tree or just put out the nutcrackers and her nativity scene. I also haven’t decided if I’m decorating down here or not. I know if I do I’m not letting the brat help this year. That was just beyond fiasco last year. And it’s not as if we really have a whole lot of room. Last year it looked like Christmas threw up down here. I think I’d prefer a slightly more understated look this time.
I’ve kind of already started decorating. When we went shopping last weekend I wanted a new set of sheets. I haven’t bought any since before my second husband and I split up more than 5 years ago. So while we were at Target I found the prettiest set of microfiber sheets that have snowflakes all over them. These are the most awesome sheets ever. I usually get the t-shirt sheets because they’re so much softer than regular sheets, but these microfiber ones beat the fuck out of t-shirt sheets. And I’m just a sucker for snowflakes.
The mood so far this morning is not bad. I’m sitting here with my light going, the bed is already made (and the cat has been shedding on it), and the living space is pretty well tidied. I do need to run the vacuum yet, but that won’t take long. I think it’s time to go have a smoke and get a beverage and see what kind of trouble I can get myself into.