Oh sweet jesus make it STOP!!!
I just sat through my first two meetings. Josh is working somewhere that he can’t talk between breaks so fortunately I was able to concentrate on what was going on for almost the entire time. When I did talk to him he kept hounding me about having sex tonight. He claims that he’s getting desperate. Whatever – it’s been 2 days. Don’t give me that shit. But it’s desperate so I have to just rush right home and take care of his needs. Never mind the fact that I’m exhausted because he woke me up last night. Never mind the fact that I’m having a hellaciously long day. Never mind the fact that I’m just really not in the mood.
Nope, gotta run right home and fuck.
And now I get an email from his ex wife saying that the brat has been complaining about us picking her up because we smoke in the car and that bothers her. I’ve told her half a million times that if the smoke bothers her she just needs to open her fucking big mouth and say something. But no, I have to hear it from the ex. So I told her that all the brat has to do is say something and that we’ve told her this repeatedly. Everything has to be just perfect for that fucking kid. I’ve got news for her, I’m not doing a goddamn thing with her this weekend. She can watch tv or play with her Kindle – I’m not doing a single fucking craft project with her.
I’ve honestly reached the point where I’d rather die in a fiery car crash than have to go home to Josh or be around for this weekend. I don’t want anything to do with either of them, ever again.
And I talked to him about this last week! I told him that it doesn’t put me in the right frame of mind when he starts demanding sex first thing in the morning. I told him it would make it better for me if he’d say sweet things and try to flirt with me. I told him I don’t want to fuck all the time, sometimes I want to take some time and actually make love.
But did he listen? Abso-fucking-lutely NOT.
And it’s only Wednesday. I’ve got a monster to do list from the meetings this morning and I won’t be in my own office to get any of it done after today. K is getting sick and is planning on staying home tomorrow so I have to cover her hours at the other office. I’ll be there all day again on Friday teaching and in more fucking meetings. I am so goddamn sick and tired of meetings!!! How do people get any work done when they’re stuck in these fucking meetings all day long???
Sorry kids, I’m just having a little rage right now. Too many icky things at one time again. It’ll pass, it always does. I’m safe from myself, don’t worry. Just might have to go find myself a nice brick wall to beat my head up against.