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Things with Josh appear to be level again.  We talked for a bit before he left for school and mostly got things sorted out.  After he left I did all of the chores and then sat down with the sweater until Mom got home.  She and I ate dinner and watched some tv until Josh got home at 8.  Last night was his last class so they got done early.

We spent some more time talking and snuggling.  I guess everything is alright now.  Except I still feel like shit.  I didn’t sleep well again last night and it’s starting to catch up with me.  I’m just hoping I can keep my shit together today well enough that we don’t fight.

The sweater is coming along nicely.  I still haven’t taken another pic, maybe tonight.  I just realized I forgot to bring it with me today.  I wasn’t really feeling well this morning at all.  It was so bad I actually got back into bed after I had my first smoke.  Fortunately neither of us was late for work, but it put me off my routines this morning so I forgot.  Oh well, it’s not like I would have been able to finish it over lunch anyway.

I think we’re getting the brat this weekend and I am so not looking forward to that.  I need some time with my husband to reconnect and make sure that things are good before next week, but I’m sure I won’t get it.  I haven’t heard from the ex yet but she might have emailed Josh instead of me this time, it’s hard to say.  I think Josh mentioned something about doing a leather project with her.  I don’t really care what they do as long as they stay the hell out of my way.

The mood is still not super.  I feel pretty drained from the fighting and from not feeling well.  I’m hoping today really does turn out to be a better day.  Here’s hoping.