I have made so very many mistakes today that it may well not have been worth coming in to work. Such is life. For the time being I’m just trying not to accidentally kill myself with something soft, like a cookie.
In order to get to sleep last night it took 1500mg of Depakote, 900mg of Gabapentin, 5mg of Melatonin, and 2 Benadryl. I was semi conscious when Josh left at 6:30. I woke up full when Mom called at 8. I had already arranged with my boss to arrive late this morning, and I’m really glad I did. I feel a little better, but I know there’s still work to be done.
I’ve got a call in to shrinky-poo to see if this is something we discuss over the phone or if I move my next appointment up. I’ll hear from her soon I hope.
Josh is still being a royal asshat. I tried explaining to him that I need more help and, in particular, I need him to try to be better to me right before bed. He continues to seem like he’d really rather just not discuss any of this. And that’s fine. I’m getting to the point where I don’t care. He’s coming home tonight after work before he goes to class. I told him it’s really ok with me if I don’t see him until later. He says he’s just coming home to change shoes. Yeah, lots of love there.