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anxiety, bipolar disorder, family, kids, life, limits, love, meds, mental health, mental illness, school, stress, the world is full of fucking idiots, work
Life has been… Damn, what’s the word I’m looking for? Wait, maybe it’s not a single word, maybe it’s a phrase. Yes, let’s see…
Unbelievably, undeniably, bat-shit, weird-ass, fucked up and then some, off the chain, ridiculously NOT GOOD
(well maybe a tiny bit good, but not much)
That’s me, as a squirrel. I put the finishing touches on a big project I’d been working on over the weekend and she was part of it. Josh drew her and I did the color on the computer after scanning his sketch. This is was an entirely personal project so there was no external pressure, but it was something I really wanted to do and that brought me a ridiculous amount of joy.
I also finished my individual school project, which made me feel quite nice. I’ve got just about everything I can do done for the group project, but that fucking slacker of a partner I have hasn’t done much at all. I’ll be kicking him in the teeth tonight.
So those were the good bits of the last several days, now for the bitching…
We had the brat this weekend. Josh decided to take her out on a few errands to give me time to finish my homework. That was lovely. Saturday night they were both camped out on the bed and got pissy when I told them I was tired and needed to go to sleep. Pretty typical. Josh still hasn’t told her what’s going on and doesn’t seem the least bit inclined to. Whatever.
On Sunday we went to Olive Garden with his dad’s family. That consists of his dad, his step-mom, a half brother and a half sister (both in their early 20s), and an adopted brother and sister – ages 13 and 11. The adopted brother has childhood onset schizophrenia and his meds are nowhere near stable yet. He’s been in several different residential treatment facilities that he keeps getting kicked out of for – wait for it – SENDING THE STAFF TO THE ER. He’s a dangerous little fuck. And the adopted sister has no manners. At one point she had a drinking straw UP HER NOSE and then proceeded to eat cake with it. (yes, the boogery end… did I mention she’s ELEVEN?)
No, I swear to all that is holy I am NOT MAKING THIS SHIT UP.
So, the plan before we got there was to go back to his dad’s house after dinner for dessert. However, they told the waiter it was Josh’s birthday and the poor bastard got a cake with candles and singing, which is really quite a harsh thing to do to a man who hates his own birthday. Plus, the Seroquel kicked in with a vengeance and he was fading fast. The brat had said something about wanting to go to their house to play with her “aunt” (the 11 year old adopted sister with the straw up her nose) but when we went to leave couldn’t be bothered to open her fucking mouth and say anything about it.
So we took her home where allegedly she proceeded to cry uncontrollably. She’s 11. She lives less than 15 minutes from them and could go over there any time. But Josh is a total fucking bastard for being so mean to her, according to his delightful ex wife. So what’s he do?
That sonofabitch apologized to his ex. Not to his kid, but to his ex. My opinion is that he didn’t owe either of them an apology, but what the fuck do I know.
But wait, it keeps getting better…
I’m up for a new computer at work this year, it’s finally my turn. This boat anchor is the one I’ve had since I started this position back in 2007. We’ve replaced the hard drive once already. I’m pretty sure it’s about to shit on me again. I’ve done every single diagnostic thing I know to do to the fucking thing. My boss finally got in touch with the guy who does the ordering and told him that I need something NOW. But this means I haven’t been able to do much of anything for the last 3 days.
So yeah, welcome to my little corner of hell…
The good news is, Josh and I are getting along pretty well. Well, since I yelled at him Sunday night anyway. But that totally counts.
AZ Gringa said:
I… I can’t seem to get past the straw thing. ::shudders::
I’m glad you’ve got a couple of sparkling silver linings in there. And you’re typing, so still no straightjacket.
I’ll bring the wine to your party. Please do make sure the room is padded. I suspect we’ll all be bouncing off the walls by then.
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Mental Mama said:
Yeah, it was disgusting. I’d have liked to have beat her. No one else could be bothered to correct her so why should I?
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AZ Gringa said:
I seriously need to learn that lesson, but that’s a post for a day when I can hold my eyes open for longer than an hour at a time.
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NotAPunkRocker said:
Every victory counts in that battle. I am glad you have had some success at work and home…some being the operative word.
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Mental Mama said:
Some is always better than none in my book. 🙂
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goldfish said:
You-squirrel is adorable!
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Mental Mama said:
Thank you!
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Twindaddy said:
Wait…why was there no underwear?
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Mental Mama said:
Dude, we just met, that seems kinda personal… 😉
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Twindaddy said:
Lol. Quit dodging!
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Mental Mama said:
Ok fine… It was a catchy title and then I realized that of all the shitty things that had been going on had nothing to do with underwear. Well, except I guess that both can be quite shitty. There ya go.
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Twindaddy said:
You know…none of the shitty things going on in my world have anything to do with underwear either. I wonder why that is.
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Mental Mama said:
Maybe cuz we carry the Immodium and we know how to use the washing machine.
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Twindaddy said:
Hmmmm……you could be on to something.
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behindthemask said:
Sounds like fun and games not. I’m glad that there is some good.
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Mental Mama said:
It’s the bits of good that keep us going. 🙂
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behindthemask said:
It sure is but I wish the good would outweigh the bad if I’m being honest.
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Mental Mama said:
Indeed!!!
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Farmer Farthing said:
Sounds like Hell, lets hope it evens out a bit now and calm waters are on the horizon! Ps, the squirrel is fabulous!! 🙂 xx
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks! Today is a trial of patience, but it’s already half over.
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merbear74 said:
Yelling always counts! I love the squirrel, it’s so you. 🙂
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks sweetie!
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Rose said:
Yelling usually gets me nowhere, other than a rude look and an “excuuuuuse me?” LOL I’m not much of a yelling type anyway. Hopefully you get your new computer ASAP. Someone in your position *kinda* needs one, ya know? The “you” squirrel is adorable. And that is just atrocious behavior on the part of Josh’s kid and the other relatives. Josh should NOT have apologized. That woman doesn’t have him under lock and key anymore! Gah. Been a hell of a week for ya, and it’s only Hump Day. Here’s hoping the rest goes a bit smoother!
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Mental Mama said:
The computer should be here tomorrow or Monday, the real question will be “how long will it take those fucks to set it up with my software?”
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Rose said:
Hmmm…maybe they will let you set it up? Or is that wishful thinking?
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Mental Mama said:
I may just insist on it. I’m actually pretty well totally qualified to do it, at least most of it.
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Rose said:
I totally think you should insist. And if you’re not 100% qualified, software comes with a manual and you can read that kind of writing. 😀
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evilsquirrel13 said:
The squirrel is so cute! I really appreciate a well drawn squirrel….
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Mental Mama said:
Aw, thanks! I’ll be sure to let Josh know you said that.
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Sharon DeVinney, Ph.D. said:
You make me laugh…thanks for that!
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Mental Mama said:
You are totally welcome! 🙂
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easyweimaraner said:
That was not really a “happy” weekend, we should have a special folder for such days. at least two good things happened to you at work and at home. the squirrel is great :o)
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks! The week is getting even more interesting. If I can ever escape from this meeting I’ll try to post again.
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Funny Dog Pictures said:
nice post, love your blog.
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks!
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ScorpionGlow said:
UHHH! I will not be able to look at a straw for at least a month.
Have a happy Easter!
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