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bipolar disorder, family, life, limits, meds, mental health, mental illness, random shit that falls out of my brain, school, sick, stress, the world is full of fucking idiots, work
I’d really kind of like to die right now. This isn’t the typical “mental stuff is out of whack and I don’t know how to cope” kind of wanting to die. Oh no, this is FAR WORSE. This is the “I think that fucking cheesecake was beyond rotten and now my insides would rather be on the outside” kind of wanting to die.
It’s finally kind of subsided, and I’m in the remote office this morning which is directly across the hall from the ladies room, but still. I may just have an alien life form in my gut, I honestly don’t know. And now I’ve just (mistakenly) taken a big ol’ swig from a bottle of flavored fizzy water that I see expired last summer. Nice. There may well be no hope for me. Time to call in the reinforcements…
Yes, this is legit. There’s a can sitting in front of me. This is just about the only kind of soda I will drink anymore. Well, this and Diet Hanson’s Black Cherry. What can I say, I don’t like cheap soda.
But I digress. Where was I headed? Fuck, who knows…
Anyway, today is therapy day. Actually, today is kind of “medical week” around these parts. I have therapy today, a visit with shrinky-poo tomorrow, and tomorrow morning Josh is having an abdominal ultrasound. His doc gave him some suggestions Friday afternoon for the heartburn stuff, which was good and seems to be helping, but Josh is having semi-persistent pain in his side that may indicate an issue with his gall bladder.
He’s going to the ultrasound ALONE, and that was his choice. 🙂
The presentation is nearly done. I sent it off to a few friends to get some feedback. Just waiting to hear from them and then I’ve got a practice session scheduled tomorrow afternoon with the squirrels.
I wish I could say that my school stuff was coming along as nicely, but that dipshit I’m working with isn’t communicating much at all. GRRRR
Mental in the Midwest 
Hugs and hope you feel better soon. I haven’t had that soda in forever, I didn’t know it was still around.
I hope the appointments this week are productive and that everything finishes out smoothly with the presentation. Ugh on the schoolwork as well.
Keep hanging in, hit me up if you need anything!
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I can’t get the soda everywhere, only a few stores, and it’s nearly $4 for a 6-pack, but it is SO worth it.
The school stuff will come to a head on Wednesday, and then when I tell the prof the sordid truth on the eval.
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I have never seen such a soda ’round these parts, or I would probably be addicted already. 😀
Maybe it’s ALL THOSE eggs. 😀 Just sayin’.
So glad to hear Josh is manning up and going to his appointment himself. Maybe he could teach DSB a thing or two. Do hope therapy is fruitful and your dipshit-in-crime pulls himself together, even if it’s last minute. One of these days, you’ll have a stress-free few hours…it’s gotta be on the way!
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Thanks, I hope so. Just getting a lunch break today has been rather arduous. But now I have Snapple and chocolate Easter eggs, so it should get better. 😀
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Snapple and chocolate will make any sticky situation better. Indeed. 😀
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I know that “cheesecake-feeling” :o) Hope you feel better soon and maybe Mr. Atkins will get the cheesecake-feeling too for that recipe :o)
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Thanks, the little blue pills from heaven finally kicked in. 🙂
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We don’t get that soda over here but if we did, I reckon I’d be an addict!
As for everything else, what a bummer missus! Big hugs and I hope you recover soon!! xx
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It’s not quite as good as chocolate that you can chew, but it’s pretty amazing. 🙂
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I wasn’t sick sick, but bummed out of my mind. Maybe watching most of a season of Game of Thrones wasn’t the best idea.
I like that it’s both chocolate fudge soda AND diet.
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The soda is amazing, and it totally doesn’t taste diet. After I did a stint on Topomax I couldn’t really drink anything carbonated (it tasted like sewer water) but this was the one thing I could always go to. I still don’t care for most stuff with carbonation but I could drink gallons of this.
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Feel better.
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Thanks, I’m getting there, it just sucks starting the day like that.
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I know the feeling all too well. It will pass, but no one said it would be pretty.
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I hope everything goes well: for Josh, with the presentation and school stuff, “medical week”, AND (last but not least) your gut.
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Thanks, sweetie. Totally digging your new avatar. 🙂
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Thanks! I was kind of cheating, trying to give people a tip on what I was referencing in my gargleblaster. They did not get it. It all seemed so clear in MY head…
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I hope it all eases up!!
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Thanks! I’m going to force the issue if I have to.
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I get that, it would bring some relief!
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That sounds delish, you must bring some when you visit!
Oh yes, hugs and stuph. 🙂
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