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divorce, Evie Cat, friends, life, limits, love, meds, mental health, mental illness, money, moods, motivation, stress, the world is full of fucking idiots
I realize that posting this morning about my med regime is quite personal, but I wanted to pop in and just sort of, well, you know – chat. How utterly house frau of me. But honestly, I know that many of you – well, at least a few of you – have expressed giving a rat’s ass about the goings on at Chez Mama and I didn’t want to leave you hanging.
Interesting Thing #1
There are now passwords on my cell phone and my laptop. It’s actually the same, quite rude, password. I realized that guarding the access to certain things was probably a good idea.
Interesting Thing #2
I am getting a shitload of stuff done lately. I’m not really spending much time worrying about what Josh is doing, or spending much time with him, and that means I have more time to do things I would like to do. Loving that.
Interesting Thing #3
I went to the grocery store on my way home from work tonight. This isn’t really interesting in and of itself, except that this is – I think – the very first time I’ve felt ok doing that since we’ve been married. I had things I needed, I didn’t want to come home just to see him only to have to head out again. And I took my time. I looked at things I might want. I didn’t purposely drag my feet, but I also didn’t rush to make sure I got home before he left. I got here about 15 minutes after he left and I do not feel deprived one single bit. Also, I took off my little cardigan and walked around in just a spaghetti strap tank top thereby flaunting a good amount of ink. It felt fabulous.
Interesting Thing #4
I’ve kept up with the drawing. This is my latest, not quite finished, piece.
I’m just not quite sure what color to make the open areas. I’m contemplating a very light blue or possibly silver.
Interesting Thing #5
He is either completely oblivious to what’s going on, or doesn’t care. Last night he did finally realize that he needed to register for the Fall term at school and got most of the way into the system before asking me how to finish. That’s progress, but I’m thinking “too little/too late” right about now. I’m still being pleasant, but not really overly anything.
And apparently I can’t write a post that doesn’t include lots of weird ass pictures. Whatevs.
Anyway, things are going well. I feel appropriately in control of the situation, and that’s really nice for a change. Today was payday – the first with my new raise on it – and that was also really nice. I’m not rolling in the dough, but I should be able to keep Evie in kibble for awhile. I might actually sit down with my budget tonight and see what needs to happen. Someone needs to start making a legitimate contribution to the finances, like now.
Green Embers said:
Love the pictures!! đŸ˜€
This is kind of mixed post, on one hand I am sad but the other I happy you’re able to get so much done. I shall choose happy, if you’re happy. đŸ™‚
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Mental Mama said:
I’ve got an embarrassingly large collection of odd pictures. You just never know when you’ll need one. đŸ˜‰
It is a mixed post, it’s just been a kind of mixed week. I haven’t been keeping up with some of my goals at all, but others I think I’m excelling at. Right now the most important thing for me is that I’m still moving forward, even if my steps are baby sized.
But yes, right now, I am happy. đŸ™‚
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WalkToRio said:
Hello Mama!
I’ve been MIA but this post sorta gave me the chance to catch up.
Glad to know you are feeling like you are, fabulous!
I like that skull, white looks nice.
xx
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Mental Mama said:
It’s good to hear from you, honey. Hope you’re doing well. đŸ™‚
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The Indecisive Eejit said:
I’m glad things are on a more even keel, I didn’t like to ask and figured if you needed to talk you would. I’m loving the drawing but I can’t remember the name of these? I should know and I will know when you remind me. I’d love something like that as a tattoo if I ever got one đŸ™‚
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Mental Mama said:
They’re called sugar skulls. I have a rather largish blue one on my back. I really rather adore the damn things. As tattoos they are beautiful, but because of all the detail, they hurt worse than most.
Things are reasonable. He finally decided to start shit with me this morning and I think I’m handling it quite well. đŸ™‚
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easyweimaraner said:
I have a very rude password too….butt I sadly have no self-confidence so I told the guy at the repair-point that I bring the laptop of a friend :o)
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Mental Mama said:
LOL, when in doubt, blame it on someone else. đŸ˜‰
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aliceatwonderland said:
I like it. We’ll see how long it takes the lightbulb to go off in his brain. Meanwhile, sister is doin’ it for herself. đŸ™‚ Also, love your pics, ha!
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Mental Mama said:
It took until approximately 8am this morning. And I refuse to let him fuck up my Friday. đŸ˜€ Thanks, isn’t that dude on skates just da bomb?
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aliceatwonderland said:
I now totally want to go to Wal-Mart dressed as Rainbow Brite. Wait, I can just let my 10 year old do that. She does it everyday.
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Mental Mama said:
Rock on!
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meredithwyatt1990 said:
I password protect everything but my family always asks me what I need to protect because my passwords are long and unique and easy for me to remember. XD great post my dear
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks! For most stuff I use a password vault, but I can’t for that stuff. So it’s the same on both, and kind of esoteric.
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Rose said:
Sometimes you’ve just gotta do your own thing, and it sounds like that’s what you’re doing. Progress, progress. đŸ™‚
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Mental Mama said:
I am totally do my own thang and LOVING IT!!! đŸ˜€
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Deborah said:
The pictures are great! It’s amazing how sometimes people don’t get that it’s too late, even when it’s staring them right in the face. “What do you mean? I thought everything was fine!” That kind of crap. Things will ultimately take their course, but I’m so glad that you’re feeling like you can do things like enjoy stopping at the grocery store and do more thinking about you and what you want. Go you! đŸ™‚
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Mental Mama said:
Thank you! Y’all have been an amazing source of positive encouragement – that helps so much. đŸ™‚
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Deborah said:
That’s what I love about this WordPress community! đŸ™‚ In spite of the rough times, there’s a group of people here who understand and are willing to be there for people.
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Farmer Farthing said:
I love the sugar skull. I’m glad you’re starting to feel better hun xx
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks! I’m not entirely pleased with the outer lines, but she’s not bad for a first try. đŸ™‚
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melissa nacinovich said:
that ‘bitch I’m fabulous’ photo is freaking awesome! I also love the sugar skull drawing, I have a sugar skull tattoo and it’s my favorite one : )
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Mental Mama said:
Isn’t that great? Thanks, I think she came out pretty good. I’ve got a sugar skull on my back that Josh drew that I really like. The drawing was kind of a cross between his drawing and a rubber stamp I have.
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