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BR goals, revisted

06 Wednesday Aug 2014

Posted by Kat in Uncategorized

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anxiety, creativity, exercise, friends, goals, stress

I mentioned previously that there would need to be some changes made with Building Rome this week, and I wanted to get them out there. Based on the conversation I had with T-bone, and what I know about myself, the best way to stay on top of the anxiety issues is by taking care of myself. This is how that’s going to look…

Established Goals for every week:

  • Take pills every morning.
  • Make bed and tidy living space every morning. Josh is taking this over.
  • Do something creative at least 3x per week at least once a day.
  • Keep a list of one good thingS that happens every day. Report on Sunday.
  • Participate in the Cartoon Craziness Challenge.

Goals for this week:

  • Keep working on sorting/scanning photos.
  • Keep sketching. I need to get at least one done.
  • Finish the bits for the care package for M. I need to get that in the mail.
  • Try to come up with a creative way to express “letting my freak flag fly” – that’s the theme for this week’s challenge.
  • Get on the treadmill at least 3x before Monday.
  • Listen to my CD every day at lunch.

well that sucked donkey balls

06 Wednesday Aug 2014

Posted by Kat in Uncategorized

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anxiety, bipolar disorder, friends, kids, life, limits, meds, mental health, mental illness, moods, random shit that falls out of my brain, sick, sleep, stress, the world is full of fucking idiots, work

1898261_1414684585450524_94836633_nAt 10:30 this morning I was sitting in T’bone’s office waiting for a chat. It wasn’t my idea, not by a long shot. I made the mistake this morning of telling my boss about the doc visit yesterday and how my physical pain is being caused by anxiety, but not to worry, I’ve got another pill for that. (nevermind the fact that I’ve become a walking fucking pharmacy) And then I asked about the lesbian.

That’s pretty well when the proverbial shit hit the fan.

one wordEvidently SHE is having too many issues with stress and anxiety right now and has taken the entire rest of the week off work. My boss alleges that she’ll be Strongly Encouraging her to seek counseling.

Oh by the way, Mama, you should go see your therapist again – I notice you’re having trouble concentrating.

DA FUQ?! You try taking all these goddamn meds and see how well you concentrate, BITCH.

1379637_10152266072559561_1716701878_nYeah, I don’t concentrate quite like I usually can. However, in a given 15 minute span I can get more work done than the lesbian and that worthless old man that works with us combined can do in an hour. None of my shit is behind schedule and as far as I know, no one is pissed at me. So, I say again, DA FUQ?!

I don’t slur my words, though I do sometimes lose them – so fucking what? I yawn a lot in the afternoon, but hey, I do my best work in the morning and who doesn’t want a little siesta around 2pm? I’m a little late getting there sometimes, but everyone is and we don’t punch a fucking clock so who the hell cares?

I called T-Bone’s office and lucky for me, he had an opening at 10:30, which I snatched like a bargain hunter in a department store the night before Christmas. And off I went.

Needless to say, his very professional opinion is that I am just fine and my boss is ridiculously crazy. However, he did give me some suggestions for helping with the anxiety. So, I’m thinking that the previously stated Building Rome goals are quite possibly going out the window this week. I have bigger fish to fry. Oh, and I made another appointment to see him – he said it wouldn’t hurt, and he likes visiting with me – for the first day of the semester.

SUCK IT, SWEETHEART.

10387579_281817861990362_4605080045246788674_nlittle flower dividerIn other news, I wanted to share a bit with Juls and this seemed like a good place to do it.

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This is my “stress dragon” – a little squeezy toy that I abuse when I get stressed. Ya know, this poor little bastard needs a name. Anyone have a suggestion?

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That’s what he looks like when you abuse him. AWW YEA!

2014-08-06 17.52.17I tried to have Josh take a picture to show y’all the recently tamed afro, but then I started fucking with the image and ended up with this. And honestly, I really like it. That image really shows how I feel most of the time right now – a little too concerned about what’s coming to look it dead in the eye.

little flower dividerA couple of unpleasant things have happened since I started writing this post. One – Josh’s family are proving yet again what ginormous fucktards they are. Two – this is our weekend to have the kid; she texted Josh a picture of a map with two places labeled “parking” and another labeled “party.”

His family is going on again about religion. He’s been getting all kinds of diatribe from them lately and finally got sick of it so he sent something in return. They didn’t like it, not one bit. So now they’re really persecuting him for being a “non-believer.” Yeah, great lot of Christians they are.

The thing with the kid – she hasn’t responded to Josh’s text asking what the fuck is going on. We suspect that she has yet another fucking birthday party to go to this weekend. Josh hasn’t had her here since I don’t remember when. Not that I give much of a shit, but he misses her. And this is a load of shit. She constantly has things come up on his weekends. I’m utterly fucking sick of it.

get your money for nothing and your weird for free

06 Wednesday Aug 2014

Posted by Kat in Uncategorized

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7weirdWhat is the weirdest way you’ve ever earned money?

Wow, whoever wrote these fucking prompts needs to be fired. Oh, wait, still me…

Here’s what’s likely to be the really weird thing about me – just how few jobs I’ve actually had. I started working when I turned 16 and have worked continuously since then. (I’m not counting the babysitting I did as a kid) Let’s see…

  1. Burger King – did damn near everything you could do there as a regular employee
  2. Sears Motor Club registration confirmation – telemarketing
  3. Subway – the sandwich shop
  4. Sprint – some other kind of telemarketing
  5. student worker – office gig on campus while I was an undergrad
  6. video rental store – that lasted less than 6 months, also while an undergrad
  7. computer lab consultant (read:  babysitter) – also an undergrad student worker gig
  8. web site designer – before you get excited, this was in the late 90s when all that shit could still be done with Note Pad and an FTP client, and it was also a student worker gig
  9. standardized test proctor
  10. inbound order person for a very large cheap novelty crap company – I was seasonal help and that lasted about 4 months, also while I was an undergrad
  11. phone based tech support for a company that made rating comparison software for insurance agents – my first “big kid” gig out of college
  12. help desk gig at the university – I think my official title was Technical Support Specialist; did that for 7 years
  13. instructional designer at the university – been at this for 6 years now

Thirteen jobs over 22 years – 13 of those years at the same fucking place, and none of them terribly weird. I know people my age, or younger, who have had way more jobs. In that respect I take after people in my parents’ generation – they would find a company they liked working for, and then stay.

99806770_680e578450_zWhy not check out what these weirds will do for a quick buck?

  • Farmer Farthing
  • Knocked Over by a Feather
  • Alice at Wonderland
  • RosieSmrtiePants
  • WeeGee
  • Not a Punk Rocker
  • Rose B. Fischer: Herding Muses
  • Green Embers
  • The Indecisive Eejit
  • Marbles, Dandelions, String
  • Fish of Gold
  • Wanna Be Uncool
  • Adventures of a Girl Gamer
  • Easy
  • Piglove

If I’ve missed anyone I apologize, just make sure to add your name to the list.

 

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