The general consensus is that there really isn’t anything wrong with ME. Shrinky-poo actually went so far as to say to me, “so Mama, there really isn’t anything I need to be treating you for right now that I haven’t been treating you for over the last several years.” Which means, I’M FUCKING FINE. And I don’t go back until September.
Her professional opinion is that my anxiety is at an appropriate level and is being appropriately managed with the medications. She approves of the use of the Soma to assist with the muscle aches, and she said that while she wouldn’t have insisted that I start seeing T-Bone again, she doesn’t think it’s a bad idea. Hey, free pass off campus early to visit a cool old dude – I’ll take it.
I also showed her the flower girl pic on my phone and told her about the DBT skills I’ve been using to help supplement the meds and she expressed pride in my ability to do that. And she thought the picture was cool. So yeah, I’m doing everything I’m supposed to be doing.
My day was pretty ridiculous today, and sadly that’s going to be the trend for the next month or so. I didn’t even get enough time between meetings to be considered a lunch break, so I haven’t listened to the CD yet. I’ll try later. I did, however, manage to get myself on the treadmill already tonight.
HOLY HELL, WHEN DID I GET SO OLD AND OUT OF SHAPE???
I walked a whole 15 minutes at 2.5 mph. When I got off, I thought someone had snuck in and replaced my legs with Silly Putty. Damn, that sucked. But at the same time, it felt good. And I will likely sleep better. My intention is to walk every week day evening, either while Josh is in the shower or while he’s at school. I’m going to work back up to longer times, but I know from experience that this will go better if I do it slow. But I did something tonight, and that’s what counts. So YAY.
At any rate, I’m still trying to figure out if it’s best to schedule posts ahead so that y’all get something every day, or wait until the evenings and hope that I have time to give you an update. If you’d like to leave your input on that, I’d love to hear what you think.