an apology

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anxiety, bipolar disorder, depression, divorce, life, limits, mental health, mental illness, moods, motivation, school, sick, skin conditions, sleep, stress, the world is full of fucking idiots, work

I am behind on replying to comments.

I am behind on reading your blogs.

I am behind on updating y’all on what’s been going on.

And I am way behind on sleep.

Life fell apart this weekend in a rather spectacularly hideous way. There is way more that needs to be done right now than I can possibly do and for once I’m not even sure I can figure out how to prioritize this mess. I know there are changes coming as well as events that will certainly prove to be major. And a birthday which is now an anniversary which will likely sting at least a little.

I need to step back briefly and see what I can do and what I need help with. I won’t lie and tell you that I’m fine because in all honesty, I’m just about the farthest you can get from fine right now. But I can tell you that I’m still fighting and I’m still alive and I have every intention of continuing to do both. And I can tell you not to worry, because I will get back to fine.