reach for the stars

I apparently cannot catch a fucking break. I had every intention of getting back on track last week and then the Virus from Hell attacked me and I spent the better part of last week in bed. I really just can’t win.

If you’re just joining me for the first time, I’ve got a list of 10 Major Goals I want to accomplish before I turn 40 in 2016. That’s what I refer to as my Life Worth Living; it’s a DBT thing. If you don’t want to stay stuck where you’ve been in life, you have to figure out where you want to go and what it would take to truly make your life worth living.

To get there, I’m using the Building Rome setup from Green Embers to break those major goals into smaller, more manageable pieces that I tackle on a weekly basis. Every week I do a Creative, Stress Management, Health, Financial, and School goal that tie back to my personal Building a Life Worth Living project.

I would strongly encourage anyone who wants a little boost in helping achieve goals to join Green Embers and the rest of the Building Rome crew as we reach for the stars.

Update from last week:

Creative – Finish the dragon I started sketching ages ago. I’m already adding color, I just need to finish and get all of the shading and then the outline done. It would also be great if I could at least get further on that fucking knit towel. I finished the dragon, but not the towel.

Stress Management – My legs are feeling MUCH better, so I’m going to try the treadmill again. I’m aiming for Monday and Wednesday, 15 minutes each night. I also need to spend about an hour every night after I take my pills unwinding without electronics. Reading, sketching, knitting; something like that. The treadmill didn’t happen at all. I did do better at the relaxing in the evenings part.

Health – My hygiene suffers when the shit starts to hit the fan, so I need to get back into my good routines again. That means a shower every day, brush and floss my teeth twice a day, and take my pills like I’m supposed to. (the pills haven’t been an issue, but they’re part of the package) I’m going to back off the food tracking goal for now until I get the rest of this back on track. Again, this got better until I got sick. I’m sitting here going on day 2 with no shower. It’ll happen today.

Financial – I paid all of the bills that were here at the start of the month and budgeted for the things that will come out automatically later and I made a plan, in my head, for handling the rest of what’s likely to come up such as gas and groceries and cigarettes. As long as we don’t go overboard before our trip, things should be back on track. And I got brave enough to check the payoff balance on the Honda the other day and it’s not as bad as I had thought. So anyway, the goal for this week is to not go shopping for anything but groceries and household supplies like toilet paper and stuff. I went and did a tiny bit of shopping with Mom, so it was better than it could have been given how shitty I felt, but it really shouldn’t have happened at all.

School – I need to decide what the hell I’m doing. I did the homework for last week since I didn’t meet with her, but I still haven’t decided if I will meet. It really pisses me off that she couldn’t just tell me that I didn’t need to worry. She’s a lousy ass teacher. BUT, this should be the last class I’d need to take with her specifically. I’m conflicted. I’ve mostly decided I’m going to just suck it up and stick it out, but I have no intention of actually meeting with her. I just don’t think I’d be able to handle a face to face meeting without saying something inappropriate.

flower dividerGoals for this week:

Creative – I need to make a few bits for care packages that I’d like to send out soon, so I need to figure out what I’m making and then make it.

Stress Management – I really need to get back on to doing things for myself again to relax in the evenings. I’d like to try to get back to the point where I do at least a small sketch every night.

Health – I’ve got to get rid of this virus. I hate feeling like this. Today is my 3rd day away from work and that’s just kind of killing me. I called the doc’s office right when they opened and someone is supposed to call me back, but that’s been 90 minutes ago. The woman I talked to wasn’t sure if the doc would be able to just call out an antibiotic or if she’d want to see me.

Financial – Try to minimize how many times I have to go see the doc. We don’t have a co-pay, but we have to pay every time we go and that gets expensive.

School – Finish all of my homework before we leave Friday afternoon.