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Let me preface this by saying that I am of the opinion that you should NEVER adjust your psych meds without first consulting your doc. So I don’t. I won’t even take something over the counter if I haven’t asked shrinky-poo about it if there even a remote chance that it will fuck with my mental stability. Vitamins, yes – herbal supplements, no. I’ve worked long and hard to get to where I am with my mental health, I am not about to go fucking that up.
But I’m rather unhappy about how many pills I take in a given day.
- 5 lithium capsules
- 2 depakote tablets
- 4 gabapentin capsules
- 1 melatonin tablet
- 1 benadryl tablet
- 1 muscle relaxer tablet (Soma)
- 3 vitamin soft gels (krill oil, vit E, vit D)
- 2 multivitamin chews (chocolate!)
Unless I’m counting wrong that’s a total of 19 pills. Granted, that’s broke up over 3x/day and the multivitamins are chewy and kind of like a little candy, but still.
So when I visited with shrinky-poo yesterday for my regularly scheduled 2 month check-in I asked her about what I take and if there was any wiggle room. I reassured her that I’m quite content with my mental stability and I want to keep that, and if that meant continuing all 19 pills then so be it. The lithium and depakote and non-negotiable – both mood stabilizers that I have to have and the doses can’t really be adjusted. The melatonin and benadryl help with sleep so they’re pretty important, and that’s just 2 pills. The vitamins help with other health concerns so they stay. So that just leaves the gabapentin.
I take it for anxiety; 1 in the morning and the other 3 at bedtime. I’m allowed a total of 7 a day, but I’ve never taken that many. And I don’t know that I necessarily need all of it and neither does she. It’s a fast-acting med with a short half-life so it’s really a PRN for me. There’s my wiggle room.
Last night I only took 2 and this morning I didn’t take any. I have a backup stash with me, I always do, just in case. But if I don’t need them, I don’t want to take them. The only way to find out is to try it and see what happens.