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I haven’t done a Top 10 Tuesday in awhile now, and I realized that it’s high past time. So, for today’s Mental Health style list I present for you my Top 10 Stupid Things I Did While Manic.
- Had an affair with my husband’s best friend.
- Bought an Infinity G35 for a guy I had met once.
- Moved in with a guy I met in the Special Care Ward.
- Had that schmuck’s name tattooed on my back.
- Racked up $20k in credit card debt buying random crap. (I don’t have any of it anymore)
- Became obsessed with a guy who lived in a different country and when shit didn’t go good with him I OD’d.
- Pushed away damn near everyone who cared about me.
- Had sex with any guy who was even remotely nice to me because in my mind (back then) sex = love.
- Drank so much I honestly pickled my liver. (it has since recovered)
- Made a 2 hour round trip twice a week for several weeks to visit another schmuck who was in the regional mental health facility. I was his chewing tobacco mule.
My life has not always been glorious or glamorous or even all that worth living. But I’ve been working on all of this for quite a while now, at least 5 years, and life is dramatically different. The majority of my debt these days is student loans from my Master’s degree. The name got covered up. The car got sold. I have a group of people who love me and, for some unknown reason, continue to put up with my bullshit.
All of that to say this…
Just because life sucks today doesn’t mean it will still suck tomorrow. Hang in there, keep fighting, keep pushing, you can totally do this. You will totally do this. I believe in you.
garym6059 said:
Wow, that’s a full life! Hope things are going better
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Mental Mama said:
Things are MUCH better. 🙂
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Not Quite Alice said:
I don’t even want to put my list together. Ashamed I am.
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Mental Mama said:
I get that. What I tell myself, because it’s true, is that I’m not that person anymore. I did those things that embarrass me now because I was sick then and not getting help. I certainly wouldn’t do any of those things now that I’m in treatment, and THAT right there is what really matters. ❤
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Not Quite Alice said:
I love you Mama. ❤
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Mental Mama said:
Love you, too, sweetie. ❤
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Merbear74 said:
Damn proud of you.
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks honey. ❤
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JackieP said:
“Just because life sucks today doesn’t mean it will still suck tomorrow. Hang in there, keep fighting, keep pushing, you can totally do this. You will totally do this. I believe in you.”
That is some mighty fine words, missy. So, so true!
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Mental Mama said:
I try to dispense the small bits of goodness I’ve picked up along the way. ❤
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insearchofitall said:
You are doing exceedingly fine for where you were. Keep on keeping on.
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks Marlene! 🙂
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easyweimaraner said:
it’s scary what have done once many moons ago… I did #2 and paid 7 years for a car where another chick parked her butt :o( uuuugh ….
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Mental Mama said:
I ended up getting the car back from him, but that meant I had to make the payments on it until I could trade it in for something much more practical. But yes, it’s terrible the things we do for men who never deserved it in the first place.
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easyweimaraner said:
this world is NOT fair. such guys should wear a warning sign on the forehead :o(
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The Indecisive Eejit said:
Who knew, you’re a real life bad ass, that’s pretty awesome 🙂
Keep on keeping on 🙂
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Mental Mama said:
LOL! I don’t know if I’d say I’m a bad ass, maybe. I’m definitely not what most people would guess I am just by looking at me though. 😉
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The Indecisive Eejit said:
Exactly bad fecking ass lol
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alfgarnet said:
Been there done that..got badge.and OMG only 10 lol
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Mental Mama said:
Only 10 for that post. 😉
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