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I’m not really even sure where to begin, which isn’t like me. So let’s see…
I did walk on Friday, only 10 minutes, but still. And my total for the week in terms of weight loss was one pound. I’ll take it.
Josh had the appointment with the cardiologist Friday afternoon. He almost certainly has blockages in his heart and his legs. On Monday he goes in for a scan of his legs and then on Wednesday they’ll do an angiogram. Not sure what they’ll find or when he’ll come home. I honestly don’t think it matters. He isn’t taking any of this seriously and I’ve decided I really don’t care. If he doesn’t love me enough to take care of himself then there’s no point in worrying about any of this.
Mom and I went shopping today, as per our usual Saturday morning fun. We did the big farmer’s market downtown, Kohl’s, Barnes & Noble, and Hallmark. She had some wicked good coupons at Kohl’s and gave them to me so I ended up with a swimming outfit for $1.06. It’s really workout shorts and a tank top that should be alright in the water and will cover the truly unsightly bits on my legs.
This afternoon I got the sewing done on the black and white vest. WOOT! I still need to trim the threads and clean up a few rough edges, but it’s essentially done. I am so fucking excited to see the ass end of that project. The knit shrug is coming along nicely as well, I’m thinking maybe tonight I’ll get to spend a little time with it. Although, maybe not, because…
MENTALTOASTER is a thing! My friend got the URL registered, WordPress is installed, and now we’re working on some final details and what it should look like. My intention is for it to be a positive place where anyone wanting to get or give support on nutritional/health type issues can go, particularly if that person also has mental health issues. I will definitely let y’all know when everything is live and ready to roll.
JackieP said:
Sounds great!
Sorry Josh isn’t taking his health seriously, but some men do that, to cover their fear.
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Mental Mama said:
Dudes, what can you do. At any rate, I’m hoping the mentaltoaster project comes together quickly. And I’ll have to see if I can get Mom to take a picture of the vest in the morning. 🙂
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insearchofitall said:
Sounds like you’re continuing to take care of yourself in spite of Josh. Good. I’m sorry he is reacting that way but I’d bet fear and a bit of depression are running him. It’s so hard for some men. My last husband enjoyed all the fuss around him. More people to wait on him. Now his daughters are doing it. Got out just in time. 🙂
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Mental Mama said:
All I can do is take care of me, he really won’t let anyone help take care of him. And it’s sad, but I’m damn near at the end of my rope with this.
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easyweimaraner said:
I’m sorry that you have such a guy too who takes his health not seriously… I probably have the twin of Josh on that front :o) Congrats for hunting a super swimming outfit for a super price!
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks sweetie.
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Chris Dean said:
Congrats!!!
As for Josh, I’ll keep you both in my thoughts. Could it be that he really is taking it seriously and simply can’t face the possibilities and that’s where the flippant attitude is coming from? I know that doesn’t make it any easier for you, but it may be his best defense. Good luck, sweetie! *hugs*
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Mental Mama said:
I’m not sure what his issue is, all I know is that I’m tired of dealing with it. Thanks for the support, I definitely need it. *hugs*
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NotAPunkRocker said:
Ugh, sorry to hear that about Josh, on all accounts.
Yay for awesome coupons and major YAY for mentaltoaster! You and your co-conspirator in blog-crime ROCK! 😀
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Mental Mama said:
Yeah, this has been a terrible mess. I ended up in my boss’s office crying this morning because of it it all. But yes, the mentaltoaster thing is going to be amazing. 😀
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