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anxiety, bipolar disorder, divorce, family, friends, health, hypomania, kids, life, love, mental illness, moods, normal, sleep, stress
I’m not going to lie and say that this process I’m going through has been entirely easy. There’s been one hell of a lot of hard work getting the traces of him out of here so that I could start building my nest. It’s been a little difficult for me to get used to being able to make my own decisions again. But I haven’t had a single doubt that I did, and am doing, the right thing.
I chose the day I did because I knew that he would have a long weekend to try to start finding a place to stay, get some things, arrange transportation. That same span of time allowed me and Mom to do the overhaul in my living space. And now I have my week off work to get my sleep schedule back under control.
The first night I have no clue how I slept, other than like shit. Since then I’ve been having my Fitbit track my sleep. The second and third nights weren’t great either, and I was starting to get worried. Too many nights with no sleep can spell utter disaster for someone with Bipolar. Lack of sleep isn’t always a symptom of mania, it can also be a trigger. And I fucking HATE being manic.
But, praise the Almighty Ceiling Cat, I slept for 7 hours and 20 minutes last night.
So I think I’m going to be really alright. I’m finishing one of the last little projects I wanted to get done this morning. Yesterday Mom and I took my nieces to a natural history museum and hung out with some dinosaur bones, which they thought was super cool. And today we’re doing crafts. So yeah, I’m doing better. Loads better. Thanks for all the support kids, y’all rock.
insearchofitall said:
Yay!! I’m happy for you.
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks!
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NotAPunkRocker said:
(((HUGS))) You got this, chica! ❤
(yes, I have been saying that to a lot of y'all recently, but it doesn't make it any less true…I just happen to have a lot of strong, awesome friends who are stepping up in times of stress and doubt and are finding themselves in the process)
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks! I actually feel like I do. ❤
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JackieP said:
Good for you! Sleep is a good thing, now if I can get some we’ll both be happy. 😉 I’m so glad it’s working out for you relatively smooth. You deserve to be happy. ❤
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks sweetie! Starting over is never easy but it definitely feels right.
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heretherebespiders said:
Yay for sleep!!! May many more sweet dreams come your way 🙂
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Mental Mama said:
Thanks!
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The Indecisive Eejit said:
Hopefully things will start to level out, you’ve been through a lot this last couple of weeks, go easy on yourself x
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Mental Mama said:
Life has settled quite a bit since I posted that, which seems odd since it wasn’t all that long ago. But it’s amazing how much more at ease I feel without his negativity here.
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The Indecisive Eejit said:
That’s good to hear. You know me, I’m always late to the party lol
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Mental Mama said:
No worries, it means you’re out living and not spending so much time tied to the internet, right? 😉
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