It’s hard right now, really fucking hard. Nothing really seems to be working out right and absolutely everything is a struggle. You don’t know what to do, how to feel, what to say to people… It sucks.
Somewhere out there is a good cocktail for you, one that will make your symptoms so much better. It just takes time to find it. Having the right doc and the right therapist should help, but they can only help as much as you’ll let them. Be honest with them, brutally honest. Tell them about every crazy sick thought that disturbs you. Every detail is important.
It’s hard to fight every day, I know this. It’s hard constantly feeling like the world would be a better place without you in it. But I’d miss you terribly, and I know I’m not the only one. We all love you and need you around.
I don’t have a magic wand we can wave to make ourselves better, but I wish I did. If I had 3 wishes I’d share with you so that we could both wish to get better. It just kills me knowing that someone I love is hurting like this.
I also don’t really have any magic words that will make you feel better. Just know that I really do love you and I’m here for you, any time night or day, for anything. Reach out to your friends for help, reach out to me. We get by with a little help from our friends.
I love you sweetie, hang in there.